words and music by Shellen Lubin
Men with faded dreams sing and strum
Laugh when they lose to the beat of a drum
Crave to be known, to believe to become
Run when I do, ‘though they don’t know what from
But they need the connection
Don’t wanna get too far
So they take my money
But they don’t take their guitar
Men with murky pasts, covered in stains
Make sweet music running through my veins
Give and take their passions and pains
Escape from the light when illusion wanes
But they need their bounties
And they need their scars
So they leave owing me money
But they leave me their guitars
I can see myself at ninety
With a pawn shop for axes
So many stealing trust
And leaving these taxes
Hit and run
Catch the breeze
The smoking gun’s
Got strings and keys
You claim you’re a giver, but you’re a devil-may-care-taker
You only save what you can own, a fool’s gold raker
You need your Sleeping Beauty, pretend your kisses wake her
Just a different kind of user, another sort of faker
You tell me you’re different
But I see just what you are
You’re a man who’s gonna owe me money
And leave me his guitar
© 2002 Bondrov Music
Eventually, I permanently and completely disbanded the row of guitars in my hall and replaced it with a piece of furniture. Their guitars are gone, and mine are rebuilt and playing beautifully (for that story, read about Peekamoose Guitars on the Links page). It has all been very healing, and I no longer see myself at ninety still holding on to other people's abandoned dreams. (My vision at the time was an album cover with me looking like Miss Havesham out of "Great Expectations" in front of a pawn shop with rows and rows of guitars in the window.)